my mind 50% of time: I want to be a great student, go to a good college, get the job I want, do the right things, make my family proud, work out, be healthy, be a successful person.
my mind 50% of time: I want to go out, party like it's the end of the world, drink, be crazy and stupid, make out with strangers, touch butts, forget about my troubles, whatever let it all go to shit idontcare.
what I end up doing: eat pasta in front of the computer while fangirling over korean men.